Floyd

How do you deal with the loss of a child? Not my child, but one of my bus riders. Floyd (nickname I gave him in the first grade) was a fun loving, laughing, always doing something silly, nice, sweet, innocent,  3rd grade boy that I loved taking to school everyday. He knew he was my favorite on the bus, yes, I know I’m not supposed to have favorites, but he was. He asked me one day as we’re going down the road, in the middle of the conversation, he says “Theresa, am I your favorite on the bus?” Without thinking, I said “Yes” followed by “OOPS, I’m not supposed to have favorites!”  Oh well, I’m glad now that I slipped and confirmed what he already knew. Yes Floyd was my favorite! We had a friendship that I will cherish forever! He would make signs and hang them up on the bus, last week was Kansas day and the kids made Jayhawks, so he gave me his and  hung the Jayhawk up in the window of the bus.  I’m going to have to take it down eventually, but not yet.  I don’t want to accept the fact that Floyd will no longer be out waiting for the bus or come out of school and tell me what happened at school that day or what silly thing he did while playing at home.  As I sit here writing, the tears are streaming down my face.  I’m not looking forward to driving this afternoon. I didn’t learn of the tradgedy until I had finished my morning route.  This is going to be a long week.  I wish I had one more time to tell him, how special he was to me, how he brightened up my days with his silly questions and stories. I will never forget my special Floyd!

Here’s the Jayhawk he made. He laughed about putting the wings upside down, but he didn’t care! picture-4997

Give your loved ones an extra hug and kiss today and be sure to tell them that you love them, because you never know what tomorrow will bring.

Theresa aka Bacon (Floyds nickname for me)

5 thoughts on “Floyd

  1. alwaysquilts

    Thanks for sending hugs Jan and Alicia. It’s been a rough day. He had a severe asthma attack. I always kept a close eye on him while he was on the bus. He really scared me twice over the 4 years he rode my bus.

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  2. TeresaL

    Theresa, I read this yesterday but just couldn’t find the right words to express my sadness over reading of your little friend’s passing. I am so very sorry for his family, you and all the rest of his friends. He sounds like he was a fun little guy to know.

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  3. how can anyone help with dealing with the death of a child? my family still struggles with the death of my niece over 19 years ago now. i think your reminder to live each day in the moment for you never know what tomorrow will bring is a good one.

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